I always say that "Nothing is difficult if you have trust". I really think like that. But now, I have no trust.
Last night, I have a dream. On that dream, I have a man very sweet. He is perfect. And I love him. But the end of the dream, I saw he kiss someone other. Then I wake up. And I remember one thing that Fergus said " betray is betray, time is not problem "
Then I think : why I don't believe anything ?
Love is cheater, when we fall in love, we can't see anything other. But, love is life too. We can't live on the life with no love. That's very foolish.
And one thing very funny is : I can keep one man beside me forever with all his love IF I DON"T LOVE HIM ! It's true. I did. I was try to chosen one man love me, and beside him, make him feel happy. And he never know that I don't love him. But I can't continue. I mad !
So, look at that : If we don't love them, we still make them happy and nothing bad happen. But when we beginning fall in love with them, and we said "I love you, I need you, blablabla" and then, all we know that " It is over ! "
Why ?????? What's wrong ?
Anyway, I want to trust something forever, something beautiful and forever.
Maybe because I'm crazy !
No, you're not crazy, in fact you seem to be very sane! What you say is so so so true. I have felt that way as well. When we love, we become vulnerable, we open up to the person whom we love and show them our everything and when they do not respond to us in the way we like we get upset.
ReplyDeleteI think both men and women have to be more considerate of each others needs and then they can live contently with one another. It's such a delicate balance to be maintained but once we try and continue trying then hopefully things turn out right..
Life is beautiful and as you said it is full of love, people usually turn to a higher power to trust, because they know that this higher power is forever there and will forever love them unconditionally.
I wish you all the best in life! Keep up your blog, your photography is amazing!